Didn't Use to Be Like This...

I have so many questions. Why are we fighting so much? It didn't use to be like this. Why is she so moody? Why do I appologize when I have done nothing wrong? Why am I so emotional lately. I am so sick of crying. I cry until my head and throat hurt. Why can't we stop hurting each other? It didn't use to be like this. Does she still love me? Does she want to be with me still? Is she going to get sick of the fighting and leave me? It didn't use to be like this. Where did we go and when did we loose us? She says I light up when I see her, and that its obvious how I feel about her. God, I love her so much. I don't know what I would do without her. But, it didn't use to be like this. What do I have to do to get us back to the way we were? I just want her back. She gets mad so fast about something so small, and it scares me. I shouldn't have to walk on egg shells in my own home, should I? Tomorrow is our 11 month anniversary, and I hope we don't have a fight. I'm so afraid that we will. I don't want our anniversary to be sad. I just want us to be happy again. I want her to hold me down and tickle me, and make me laugh. I want her to lay in my arms and feel her breathing. I want to not have to hope we will have a good day. It didnt use to be like this...